Waiting For the Other Shoe To Drop

I was introduced to heartache at a young age. When I was 11 years old, my grandpa died suddenly of a heart attack. Three weeks later, my uncle died in a plane crash. These two traumatic incidents were only the beginning of tragic events that would happen in my life. I lost two friends and classmates – one my junior year of high school and one the summer after graduation.  I had two cousins commit suicide a few years apart. I lost several family acquaintances to cancer and had to make the tough decision to put my cat to sleep. 
Then, I married someone whose battles became my battles. We went through some hard times fighting for our rights together that included attorneys, a court battle, harassing phone calls and more.
When you go through tough things in life – it takes its toll on you. You may heal, but there is still a part of you that has been changed by life’s events. It starts to shape who you are.
I grew up a very bubbly, talkative, confident young girl. I became a stressed, insecure young woman. That’s what life can do to you, if you let it.  I say, “if you let it” because I believe in the human heart. I believe that a person can rise above their circumstances, overcome unfair things in life, and still become who they dream of being – if they simply make the choice to do so. I also believe that there is a purpose in the pain and that God can show you how to use what you’ve been through to better your life and others’.
I recently realized that although my life has been bestowed with many, many blessings – I often would still be feeling pain underneath of those smiles because there was something in me, based on what I had been through and seen in life, that was still waiting for the other shoe to drop. I kept thinking that the good times were temporary. Something has to go wrong soon! But I was wrong to think that way and I was wrong to live that way.
God has the right to give and take away things and people in our lives. But even though we’ve been through personal pain, that doesn’t mean that our whole lives have to be lived as though we are victims. We don’t have to look around every corner, jump at every phone call, or sit and wait for that “next” bad thing to happen to us! We are wasting God’s blessings if we do this.

And I have done this.
I don’t want to waste God’s blessings on my life. I know that “life is life.” There is good and bad in life. There is fun and there is hardship. There is pain and there is joy. It is all a part of life. My life. And it all teaches me something. It’s up to me to learn from it.
I can always hold close to my heart those personal pains that are dear to me. Those things in life that touch my heart in profound ways because of what I went through and what they taught me. But I can’t continue to let them hurt me. I can’t let them overcome the present day. God has many blessings that He wants to give me in life too. And even though I may have felt the hurts in life on a deep level, I should allow myself to feel the joys of life on a deep level as well. For it is those joyous moments in life that remind me of my purpose, and my vision. It is the blessings in life that refuel me and heal me. If I don’t let myself fully feel them, then the painful moments in life will take over any joyous moments that I could have had. They are like weeds left untended. They kill the flowers that are trying to grow.
We all have heartache and painful memories. We’ve all dealt with “stuff.”  But there is a quote in the “Rocky Balboa” movie that says, “It’s not about how hard life hits you – it’s about how hard you can get hit and keep moving forward.” That’s what we need to do. Keep moving forward. Don’t let those weeds grow too big in your life; for there are many flowers just waiting to bloom.

~ Dionna is a work in progress. She shares what God teaches her through her pain and her joy in the hopes that it will help someone else break free from the lies and pain that Satan has laid before them. You can read more of Dionna’s heart at her blog: http://beautyinthestorm.blogspot.com

Where Is The Sting?

Where is our morality?

We cannot stand up and say that homosexuality is wrong lest we be deemed “judgmental.”

We don’t flinch when we watch television shows with chronic infidelity. It’s the “norm.”

Our children wear clothing that show their rear-ends when they bend over, or declare statements that say things such as “It’s all about me.”

We allow computer and Nintendo games in our homes that depict shooting other people and killing them.

We watch movies that have scenes of women showing their breasts (or most of them) – and we wonder why our husbands have a hard time remaining faithful to us!

These are just a few examples of the road our society has gone down. And it’s not “them” that I speak of – it’s “us.” We allow it and we partake of it. We aren’t critical of what we watch or listen to. It doesn’t sting our hearts the way it should because we have grown cold.

What happens when our hearts grow cold? What happens when people don’t stand up in justified anger over sin? Can God work? Is there any hope? Have we given up? If we’ve given up then things will only get worse and we will get more corrupted just as much as the rest of the world.

I, personally, want God with me and for me. I want to call on Him and know He will come to me. But I have to keep my heart soft. I have to be wise and discerning about what I allow into my home, my life, and my heart. I have to be willing to correct areas in my life where I’ve grown cold or immune to God’s Word pricking my heart. I can’t “pretend” to be upset over something and then go and be a part of it. I can’t stand by and let myself succumb to peer pressure or thoughts and images that others say are socially correct. For only God’s Word is correct and He is my ultimate judge.

Let us fall on our knees and ask God to have mercy on us. Let us call out to Him and ask Him to permeate our hearts and lives and move us to action on behalf of our love for Him, our families, and this life that He has given us. Let’s not sit idly by and let others believe the “lie” that all these temporary thoughts and ideals will bring long-lasting happiness – for they will only cause misery.

We need to put ourselves in a position where we are stung by what is happening around us. It needs to hurt us – what we see – what we hear. It needs to move us to stand up for what is right, to pray, and to speak out.

We need to be either hot or cold. We need to decide which side of the fence we are on. Are we on fire for the Lord? He said He would spit those who are lukewarm out of his mouth. I don’t want that to be me. Nor do I want to grow cold and be immune to the hurting, the weak, or the lost. I want my heart to sting. I want it to sting for what is lost and what needs to be right.

Do you?

Dionna Sanchez is a freelance writer and blogs at http://beautyinthestorm.blogspot.com

Get Rid of the World View

The world seems to be shouting at women that if you make the choice to stay home with your family and raise your children that you will be “missing out” on real life.  Sometimes mothers can be made to feel like they are “less than” a real person because they don’t have a job that society feels is a successful position.  Even if you don’t agree with this kind of mentality; living in the world we do, we can still be made to feel a little less than valued.
We’ve heard it before but I’m here to remind you that you ARE valued. It is an honor and a privilege to be able to impact a whole generation.  And even if you have to work or you choose to work, you can still proudly tell people that you are a mother and that your kids are a priority in your life.  I know that balancing a job and taking care of a home must be so brutal. It’s a juggling act that can leave any sane person feeling stretched, to say the least. The corporate world does not value the time a mom puts in at home. They don’t understand the investment that needs to be made into the family.
It seems as if sometimes we see kids as a deterrent. They pull on us when we’re doing all we can to work and be there for them; they sidetrack us when we give up everything to raise them.  But I’m here to tell you that kids are NOT a deterrent. They are a blessing.

Children will be able to teach you more about yourself, your values and your worldviews than any corporate job ever could. And children can teach you to dream again when you think you’ve given up on your own. They are a built-in blessing that God has given each one of us.
No matter how the world views mothers or thinks that women are “missing out” on life when they choose to spend time with their families; they are wrong. It’s good to remember that.

~ Dionna Sanchez