lately the enemy has been trying to convince me that i am not capable of doing anything. that i don’t have a “sweet enough” personality, that i will never become the dancer i dream of being, that i am not reaching people for the lord, that i will never do much for the kingdom of God. he has even been working on me over the past year through blogging.
i haven’t written on this (or my personal) blog in MONTHS because i felt like i never had anything worthy of blogging. quite frankly, i felt dumb for even considering writing my thoughts out thinking that no one would even be affected by them. how foolish. God doesn’t want us to be consumed by what we are doing for other people- he wants us to have our eyes so focused on him that other people want to know why we aren’t shaken by the things of this world. he wants our hearts so completely wrapped up in him that we aren’t even thinking twice about whether or not we are “doing enough” for the kingdom- we know that we are living our lives fully for his glory. that’s all he wants. is you.
i was recently talking with a friend about how messed up i have been feeling and she told me about a sermon she heard. the pastor said something like “God does not hand over power to satan. God allows things to happen in our lives to teach us, but the enemy only has as much control as you give him.” i realized that the reason why i was feeling so weird and discouraged and just not myself was because i was allowing satan to mess with the way i saw myself, which made the feelings of “not-good-enough” come to the surface.
so stay strong. i know i am only a 17 year old who hasn’t even made it out of high school yet, so this might not really mean anything to many people, but just know that you are worth more than you know. you can be whatever you want to be and you can achieve the seemingly impossible because of our POWERFUL and gracious God.
for the word of God is living and powerful! It is sharper than any two-edged sword, piercing to the dividing of soul and spirit, and of the joints and marrow, and is a discerner of the thoughts and intentions of the heart. hebrews 4:12